As far as I can go!

…….and just like that I knew it’s not even worth a thought anymore. Last weekend we made it to the top of mount Rainier before they closed the pass for the Winter. Looking at the Mountain from Seattle is mind blowing, standing at the very top of it makes you pray that it won’t erupt any time soon, and suddenly I realized that this is it! I can’t go higher at that point. This is it right now. Right there and then I understood that deep inside of me it is the same. A limit of what I can carry. I felt almost as happy and free as I do every time going up Denali/Mount McKinley. However, at one point while driving through the magical landscape, northern rain forest, taiga and tundra, I finally understood that my soul has said it’s own good-byes to everything and everyone toxic in my life. I didn’t even realize it right away. It just happened. I separated from it all, separated for good from everyone/everything hurtful no matter the love I once had for the person. In a way my soul closed its doors for good right there to those still trying to manipulate, do wrong, and at times being plain evil, full of selfish agendas. I didn’t do a thing. It was just gone. The guilt of letting go, because I still believed in the good, grabbing on to the hope they will change in time – was gone. Completely, absolutely gone! I gazed over the valleys and vast landscape, and felt like a weight had lifted. A couple of days later now it is still the same. I am grateful for it, beyond grateful to what ever set my soul free. Free of guilt, hope and also worries for who I am done with now. Completely done. I look back on the years passed , and all I see is moments and times I am thankful for. Nothing else. Literally nothing else, and even the bad memories of the hurt, the anger, the endless lies and sleepless nights, where gone. Maybe I should have gone up the mountain sooner, walk through the beloved woods, and the northern rain forest with its magnificent old trees above the ocean. I know for good now that just nature can heal me. Nothing else. Humbled, grateful, happy beyond words gazing from the mountain top up to the sky. Where I will go to when all is said and done. Nourishing, silent and serene. Never underestimate the power of where you came from, and will go to again. It’s all one. Wisdom, freedom, love and forgiveness is found in those places. God can be found in those places, while feeling one with everything around you. ~~~~~~~~Love and Light to all of you during this Holiday weekend. Simone’

12 thoughts on “As far as I can go!

  1. Sounds like your heart’s finally let go of the pains you’d been put through, freeing you from the restraints of your past, i had a similar experience like that too back in 2008, and it’d felt like all the weight suddenly, lifted, and i can, finally breathe again…

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    1. It does. It’s like you just are. That’s it. Like an empty vessel after pouring everything out, and there it pools around you feet. ……. and then stepping out of it, and walking away with the liberating knowledge of the empty space you created. 🙏🏻☺️ Happy Thanksgiving 🍁!!!

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